So, uh, yeah I haven't been on in months. Really quite unfortunate as I find I can function better when I vent out my thoughts somewhere instead of keeping them bottled inside. I know I shall be on this site more as I am using my other blog (found here: http://theeternalpath.blogspot.ca/ ) to blog about my reading the Bible in 365 days. So, I shall most likely be updating this one sometimes.
For now, though, all I can say is yes, I get hurt sometimes and frustrating, upsetting, or painful stuff happens in my life, though I find the things that keep me up at night are not my struggles, but those of the ones I love and care about. I hurt to see them hurting and it pains me to be unable to help them or fix it and make their pain stop. I think that totally honestly I would take it off their shoulders and put it on mine if I could... I can't stand seeing them hurting - I'd rather I hurt instead. I know it would be painful, but I would be able to more easily deal with it just by seeing them not hurting. Sometimes I really wish there were an option. "Take it or leave it". I honestly would like to think, though truly do at most times believe, I would choose to take it...
Also, as a final note, sometimes I'm just overcome with those moments when you realize how truly incredible God is, how He loves you, and you suddenly feel at peace and, in fact, happy. One of those times hit me earlier - right after I started legitimately getting back into reading my Bible. I'm a reader, but I'll admit I don't tend to be thrilled about picking up the Bible. That, however, has - thank goodness - been starting to change. I got a really awesome study Bible (quick shout-out to my amazing mother who got it for me) and it definetly helps. It has really neat little notes that not only describe meanings and context or whatnot, but also take it to another level and apply it to everyday life nowadays. Now, I am an overthinker, so I tend to sit down and mull for ages over these little points. Thing is, it's still all directing my thought path back to God every time, and I would say that is certainly why I feel 95% better just from reading a few chapters. :)
Well, that is all for tonight!
God bless you! :D
